Friday 10 June 2011

Flying away...

On a hot summer day, lying down on the grass.. I can feel the warmth of the sun on me.. the cool breeze.. keeping it pleasant. Lying down..staring up at the blue blue sky .. I can see hot air balloons moving above me.. "I must seem like an ant to them".. I think.. sigh.. how beautiful the view must be.. I think.. "Wish one day I can go up there and see the view.. must be beautiful.. to experience it.. standing in the balloon.. seeing a view similar to the ones from an aeroplane..but without that barrier of that big hunk of metal or through 5 inch windows. One day.. One day I should see that".. I lie down for a while.. and then get up.. dust off my jeans.. and then I look ahead.. and It's right there..staring at me all this while..and I failed to notice it..



How beautiful.. It just took my breath away.

And I realise.. how I was so busy thinking of what it would be like to travel and see the beauty from up in a hot air balloon.. I was missing out on something so beautiful..right within my reach... right in front of me...

Wednesday 8 June 2011

Memories...

All of us have different ways of associating and relating to memories.. for me it's with smells.! For me.. certain days of the week..smell a certain way.. summer holidays when I was in school would have a distinct smell..rain...holidays.. coming home from college and hostel... and even now.. when I smell a scent similar to that.. the memories and images flash immediately.. like a movie! One of the fondest.. is this distinct memory (I don't know when it happened).. But a pleasant sunny afternoon... I am coming home.. and I open the wooden front door.. I can smell mom's delicious rasam.. and see her wearing an apron over her sari.. and smiling and walking towards me!.. As usual.. I tell my mom .. " Amma.. how can u do this to me!.. It smells so good.. I am veryyy hungry.. "... and mom smiles :)

This picture and smell reminds me exactly of that.. Mom.. and Home.. Love u :)

Tuesday 7 June 2011

When you think of holland...

The image that flashes infront of you is......



Whatelse!..Windmills :)


This was taken from my Iphone while biking towards the town on a sunny evening!
Unfortunately today has been a damp day!. It's been pouring since morning.. thunderstorms ..flash floods in Arnhem (the nearest town). But, Its been a good day for work!

Just realised.. getting files into shape for analysis..takes longer than the analyses itself!!

Sunday 5 June 2011

A resolution! Day1


Everybody who knows me.. Knows that I love routines! Hopefully a creative routine will calm me through this frustrating phase of PhD in my life -technically I will only be getting the "D" from the whole PhD..as the Ph has already been claimed by its rightful owner for playing their part in making me work :D - So.. I've been toying with the idea of posting something regularly.. like a ritual if you will.

To make good use of all these gadgets that I am crazy about and keep buying - I shall try and post a new picture from my Iphone everyday!..However crappy or idiotic it may seem..

Here goes it -

A thought...

I dream of you. I dream of me,
I dream of an alternate reality.

A place where love is one, a whole,
No you, no me, just soul to soul.

No thoughts, no questions, no reasons why,
Love is love, nothing to deny.

You touch me and it goes right through,
As if I were a part of you.

And even when you go away,
It seems to me you always stay.

It feels so new, yet unmistakably true,
Though how we got here, we have no clue,
Could it be that we were meant to be?
Maybe some kind of destiny?

But our world is filled with uncertainty,
Where you and me can never be.

Is this where our path will lead?
Where you and me, together we breathe?

In all this life complexity,
We must find some soul simplicity,
And make a world where we can be,
As true as true can ever be.
As one as two can ever be.

Monday 20 October 2008

Perspecitve of an emergency

V is frantically calling J

Tring.. tring..
Tring.. tring...

An automated squeaky voice " The person you are trying to reach is not available, please try later"

After 2 hours

J returns V's call

Tring.. tring...

V: Hello traitor!
J: Hey, whats up V! sorry, couldn't pick up the call
V: Wow, what a revelation,!!!...after trying for half an hour, I guessed as much!!!
J: Sorry, the phone wasn't near me, Kya hua?
V: It was an emergency.. and I called u. and u weren't there for me
J: Oh shit, I am so sorry!! What happened? are u okay?
V: The basic duty of a Friend, in times of need, and u weren't there!!
J: Oh come on, I am so sorry, the phone was upstairs and I was downstairs..
V: It was an emergency and I was calling you... how could you do this to me
J: I am really sorry.. please tell me what happened..
V: It was an emergency.. How could you.. I don't know if i can trust you anymore
J: Oh please atleast tell me what happened.. I'm sorreeeee ( goes off into a scratchy squeaky, hi pitch.err.. undertone.. )
V: What if i was hit by a bus, and in the last minutes of my life, all i could dial was your number and you dint pick it up!!
J: come on, you are obviously alive, so .. Okay..okay.. I'm sorry, can u at least tell me what it was...?? I'm really sorry and I'm feeling really bad
V: Well.. I don't know if I can trust u .. You ditched me!..
J: V.. come o..
V:.. in my time of need.. I was standing at Malleswaram.. in the rain.. calling you.. my only hope..
J: But why?!.. what happened??!!!
V: well.. Becuz...
J: yeah??
V: What if I was dying and there was no one to help me.. and you my only last resort.. ditched meee!!!!
J: Come on V.. please tell me what happened??...
V: Ok.. welllll.. Brace ur self.. oh before dat.. I wanted to ask u one more thing..
J: yeah?
V: Where in Malleswaram can u find swimwear apart from that sports store?? on 14th cross?
J:.. I don't know.. but are u saying this was the emergency? and your time of need?!!
V:.. Well.. you see we all have our own emergencies!!!! and...
J: V.. are u telling me.. swimwear was ur emergency and I was apologising for that all this while...??
V: YOU DINT PICK UP THE PHONE.. I COULD HAVE BEEN DYING!!
J: well V.. if you weren't.. I would have come over and done the job!!!!!!

Thursday 16 October 2008

All but a lie

In the blanket of darkness I lie

Cocooned and warm from the cold

I wonder why

Longing for shelter and

Desperate for shield

From the bright and almost sickening feeling of happiness

I lay, untrue to my nature,

Believing in the lie; like everybody else

I realise, brightness is a lure

And happiness just a mirage

A sickening play on god’s part

Who sits back and laughs

Looking at us, reaching out for something

That never existed

It’s all but a lie.